Fake it until you become it

It's rare that I get moved by a video. This video moved me. I'll start this experiment tomorrow. Stretch out, pretend I am powerful and I can do things. King of the lab!

珊瑚海

转身离开
分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱差异一直存在
回不来
等待竟累积成伤害

转身离开
分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此不够成熟坦白
不应该
热情不再笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

你明白歌词的含义吗？

I've noticed that I've stopped coding into music. Songs don't talk to me any more. I haven't downloaded anything in a while.

Quote of the day: You're a people person. Use your artistic talents.

会后悔吗？不知道，至少现在觉得决定是对的。问题出在哪里？也许我心目中的理想太高不可攀，太不现实，也许时机不对，也许我还是对这种事情一知半解。
我需要改变，要敞开胸怀，不可以自私地只管我自己，可是也不要在途中迷失了自己。

好歌不停播

my taste in music has changed, evolved, matured?

a few years ago i had a post about why I like a song. If i didn't remember wrongly, the criteria were good melody, something clever/ complex like unexpected key changes, compound time and i don't remember what the last one is

最近很喜欢听五月天的歌。可能是因为他们的歌具备了以上的条件，但我更觉得我喜欢五月天是因为他们的真诚。我能感觉到他们的high, 他们的真心，他们的用心，他们的努力。听了这么多年的歌，终于明白什么是唱出了感情，终于明白歌曲最终的用意。

Here are some of the songs that 让我感触良多, ones that inspire me.
1. 最初的梦想 --  范玮琪
2. 给未来的自己 -- 梁静茹
3. 我飞故我在 -- 林俊杰，张靓颖
4. Make you feel my love -- Adele

Went to a SF symphony summer concert, symphony with a circus. Very entertaining. They played familiar classical favourites like Flight of Bumblebee, 1812, William Tell, movie themes like Star Wars, Superman, pop songs from the Beatles, they even played my favourite Sorceror's Apprentice. I thought that I'll be moved by drama of 1812 or the excitement of Star Wars, or the suspense in Sorceror's Apprentice, but what really touched me was from the Beatles. A descending bass, the progression that is so familiar.. I wonder if the descending bass has the same effect on everyone, or is it just me. Is it instrinsic to this progression? Or is my response an acquired one due to previous encounter with this?

I wish things don't have to move in riddles, that moves don't have to be loaded with intentions. I wish my mice will just tell me what I need to know, cells will behave, shRNAs can knock down proteins and Southern blots will work. Wishes.

Mission in the Mix. My 3rd and maybe final year. I love it. It's the highlight of the summer. Love the friendships that form through the process. Love how 16 year olds can get along with 40 year olds. It's here that ages don't matter, shapes, sizes, race, sexual inclinations all makes no difference. We are friends with everyone. All you need is an enthusiasm for dance and performance, you don't even have to be good.

Micaya.. An inspiration in my life. Looking so elegant at her age. Teaching hip hop at that age. I want to be this active when I'm 50. She's the one who tells us to be generous, to give everything we have to the audience. You're only on stage for that 10min, there's no replay, undo, regrets. Give it all. It's ok to be imperfect, audiences like real people, they like to be able to relate to the dancers. This is the time to be real. I tend to be someone else instead. Is the person on stage the real me? Idk. But I do lose many inhibitions onstage, it's a show, I can be vulnerable for 10min and show you faces and attitudes that don't normally make it out of me. The same thing I do for giving talks. It's like putting on a show. For an hour, I don't have to be the usual me, I can pretend to be a good speaker, friendly, sociable, funny, whatever and give a good talk.

Innocent

I've always liked this song, since we first played in lower Sec. My attempt at creating tracks and mixes. It's not perfect, but it's been a while since I recorded anything and I really wanted to record this. This is one of the things that's keeping me sane these days

3rd year slump

sigh...
1st year: make friends
2nd year: start of a hopeful project
3rd year: shit, have i been wasting my time working on something (a) already known (b) is an artefact (c) only idiots care about?
panic..
sigh..

I'm an escapist. I run from problems. Grad sch is a place where problems don't go away if you ignore them. Maybe I should run away from grad sch..

By the way

2012

In this year, I will

1. Drink at least 500ml of fluids a day
2. Know more about ribosomes than my PI
3. Not sacrifice time with friends and family for work

Happy new year