currently in an elated state.. =D
been abandoning this place for some time, let me do a review of what happened since i last stepped here. found out the other day that YEF is next sat! And where will i be next sat? in Bangkok airport stoning. Can't believe I'm missing EF. And it's in VCH this year, not some hotel ballroom. Aargh! Don't understand why no one announced it, or why Clementi didn't even put up the poster. I didn't even know when are the heats, and still don't know actually.
Yesterday.. supposed to go to school to look up Chem S stuff with Jialing, but she didn't come, so spent the day with Christelle. So 巧，one of the few days where i go to sch and one of the few days when she's alone in sch. Haha, must be 缘份. Is this how u write the words? Don't know, haven't written Chinese for ages. Hasn't been writing Jap for a even longer time, spent so long examining the names of the Jap arrangers yesterday while trying to fill up my exam repertoire list, had to resort to checking a dictionary, cos I really can't tell how to write those words. Finally got everything for exam sorted out nicely.
Oh yeah, remember that cute girl fr Yamaha exam branch, she's so nice. I gave her so much troubles and she actually thanked me. Haha, for telling her my probs in advance.. so nice of her.
Today, went to sch in a normal mood, planned to reach at 10, but when I was at Buona Vista at 9.50, thought that I was seriously late cos there's no RJ band people at all throughout my entire walk to sch. Rushed to sch and realised that i'm still q early, since they started even later than they said they will. Oh, got a nice big bottle of sweets and chocs with a lesbian tag(wonder why?) fr my dear juniors, much nicer than what we gave our seniors last year. Yup, I'll miss the whole section going shiii feeeng every 10min.. Got more sian through invest, especially after they made us shuffle here and there to arrange us into 4 simple rows for 1/2 an hour. Then had to wait for some 大牌 people to finish shitting. Sian diao, cos of the rain also lah.. mood dampener. Anyway didn't achieve my aim today, always happens.. procrastinate, chicken, then bye bye chance. Nvm.. Left for lessons when the food came, the food looks q nice, too bad no chance to try it.
Mood got better. First, I was smart enough to switch on the power to my studio, gave me chance to practise one piece before lesson started. Heehee.. Then did some great sight-readings, impro chords were ok, maybe because I've done them before, but anyway I'll believe that I'm ready for exam. Then my teacher was so smart to know that I want some peace and time for practising, he actually went the other studio to teach for both his lessons, so I had the EL90 for 2 additional hours. Really thank him for that.. practised quite a lot today. =)
Sorry Jacinth, your photoframe glass broke..
this is a long post.. After lesson, I felt so much happier, cos of the productive session? Maybe, or maybe it's just the weather, of 雨后天晴, of the 风雨过后的美好天空. Anyway, finally finally got the DHSSB recording of Rhythm XVII! It looked so good, but stupidly they cut off the strings section from the photo. What's so special abt DHSSB? Besides the great orchestra sound and celesta and Mr Ng, it's the HUGE strings section, and they cut it off completely.. Can't wait to listen to it. So another thing to make me happy!
Then on the way home, received this sms fr my teacher. I thought that today was an ending day, end of band life, end of electone life.. Then the sms asked me to demo on sunday. haha, what a great way to end my electone career, with a demo. Think I'll screw it up though, 3 days to memorise 5 pieces, can I do it? Yup! (we must not be our own enemies!) But that means that I might not be able to go for that Sentosa thing any more, must mug my scores.
Hey, since when hon reads my blog??
OK long enough post, hope the day remains so good.. =D
Wednesday, 9 June 2004
Saturday, 5 June 2004
been having weird dreams, many unrelated people appearing at strange places talking strange things.. Very sad that i had those dreams, cos some parts of the dreams are really good, really happy, sort-of like the things that I've wished for, but dreams will never come true, so don't think my wishes will come true too..
the Day After Tomorrow is purely an effects show. The plot is predictable, it's not funny, and the touching parts are not touching enough.. but the effects are really good. Don't know how real or scientific they are, but they sure look real. Love the view of clouds from the satellite, and the way everything just freezes in a split second, cool. Just wondering, what happens when the temperature rises again, when all the ice melts, where can they escape to then?
the Day After Tomorrow is purely an effects show. The plot is predictable, it's not funny, and the touching parts are not touching enough.. but the effects are really good. Don't know how real or scientific they are, but they sure look real. Love the view of clouds from the satellite, and the way everything just freezes in a split second, cool. Just wondering, what happens when the temperature rises again, when all the ice melts, where can they escape to then?
Tuesday, 1 June 2004
(no, but) + (yes, and) = (yes, but)
sound so mathematical, got coordinates, or maybe they are statistics, the binomial distribution.. anyway, i use "yes but" a lot. It's a good way to state my opinion without discrediting someone else's. Been reading SAT II writing, and trying to make my sentences relatively grammatically correct and clear. Can't really do it without all the subjects (I, you, he, she..).
Don't think I can survive in uni with my verbal skills, can't talk, can't write. Don't talk about discussion on complex issues, I can't even express myself properly, with my brain not functioning half the time. Now I know where all my time went to -- stoning! Will turn into a big piece of rock soon if i just sit and listen and receive or worse, listen and let everything bounce off me. Luckily I wasn't the only one there today, luckily she "took a break" and joined me, luckily the other girl came, if not it'll be even less productive. Guess they didn't know that they saved me. Since I can't talk, I will listen.
Stayed in sch library today. Didn't expect to see so many people. The library has been robbed of all the useful books, there wasn't even a SAT II Maths book available, and no good biotech books, so didn't do much again. Anyway so nice to have someone to stay with me even after the library closed. =)
Went check eyes again. If all optometricians were responsible, there'll be less people with eye diseases. I was never told to not wear contacts for more than 8 hrs a day, never told how to count the one month, never told how damaging soft lens can be.. great, now no more lenses for the next 3 months at least.. Can't they teach properly? Or must we really go to the expensive shops to get a responsible professional to tell us everything we should know?
Police officers at interchanges and MRT stations.. don't think it's going to prevent terrorism. How easy it is to escape their glances, all they can do is to be there to assist in case a bomb went off. Don't think they can deter, cos most prob they'll be checking innocents' bags and other innocents will just not carry big black bags around.
Let X represent the no. of bomb carriers in a year. X~ Po(2). Probability that there'll be 1 bomb carrier a year = 0.3
Probability that the police will spot this guy assuming that he looks normal and police check 10 people a day out of 5000 = 0.0006
That's how you practise what you learn in stats. All the best to the police.
sound so mathematical, got coordinates, or maybe they are statistics, the binomial distribution.. anyway, i use "yes but" a lot. It's a good way to state my opinion without discrediting someone else's. Been reading SAT II writing, and trying to make my sentences relatively grammatically correct and clear. Can't really do it without all the subjects (I, you, he, she..).
Don't think I can survive in uni with my verbal skills, can't talk, can't write. Don't talk about discussion on complex issues, I can't even express myself properly, with my brain not functioning half the time. Now I know where all my time went to -- stoning! Will turn into a big piece of rock soon if i just sit and listen and receive or worse, listen and let everything bounce off me. Luckily I wasn't the only one there today, luckily she "took a break" and joined me, luckily the other girl came, if not it'll be even less productive. Guess they didn't know that they saved me. Since I can't talk, I will listen.
Stayed in sch library today. Didn't expect to see so many people. The library has been robbed of all the useful books, there wasn't even a SAT II Maths book available, and no good biotech books, so didn't do much again. Anyway so nice to have someone to stay with me even after the library closed. =)
Went check eyes again. If all optometricians were responsible, there'll be less people with eye diseases. I was never told to not wear contacts for more than 8 hrs a day, never told how to count the one month, never told how damaging soft lens can be.. great, now no more lenses for the next 3 months at least.. Can't they teach properly? Or must we really go to the expensive shops to get a responsible professional to tell us everything we should know?
Police officers at interchanges and MRT stations.. don't think it's going to prevent terrorism. How easy it is to escape their glances, all they can do is to be there to assist in case a bomb went off. Don't think they can deter, cos most prob they'll be checking innocents' bags and other innocents will just not carry big black bags around.
Let X represent the no. of bomb carriers in a year. X~ Po(2). Probability that there'll be 1 bomb carrier a year = 0.3
Probability that the police will spot this guy assuming that he looks normal and police check 10 people a day out of 5000 = 0.0006
That's how you practise what you learn in stats. All the best to the police.
Monday, 31 May 2004
In a mood to surf and find out about myself, so here goes..
Which HP Kid Are You?
not too surprising, i think
E.T.!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla
really? don't think this is accurate
Which HP Kid Are You?
not too surprising, i think
E.T.!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla
really? don't think this is accurate
Saturday, 29 May 2004
had been trying the past term to not think so much and just do stuff and guess what, failed yesterday. Sorry, don't think you know what I'm talking about but that's the point. as a consequence of that hemming, I'll have to waste 2-3 more days worrying at least.
PSC psycho test today. The timed part was boring, but the personality part was quite fun. Realised that I gave an impression of this anti-social, self-centered, bad-tempered follower. Not PSC material at all. Anyway, had fun shading the bubbles, ranking those statements which I either want all or none of them. There was this question on whether I worry too much and I just thought of yesterday's incident.. Found out tha I'd rather be likeable, creative, intelligent than successful, guess it's not what people can see that's important.. OK, not making sense. Then I actually said that Shakespeare is a more important person than Darwin. Call me a bio student.
PSC psycho test today. The timed part was boring, but the personality part was quite fun. Realised that I gave an impression of this anti-social, self-centered, bad-tempered follower. Not PSC material at all. Anyway, had fun shading the bubbles, ranking those statements which I either want all or none of them. There was this question on whether I worry too much and I just thought of yesterday's incident.. Found out tha I'd rather be likeable, creative, intelligent than successful, guess it's not what people can see that's important.. OK, not making sense. Then I actually said that Shakespeare is a more important person than Darwin. Call me a bio student.
Thursday, 27 May 2004
been wanting to blog since tue, but too tired to.
Tue
In a study for GP mood, physics lect was cut short by half an hour, then PE cancelled, so all the time in the world to study GP. But then it's so difficult, gave up half way and went slacking and disturbing the Chem R people.
Chem S was an exciting session with Mr Yeo using that "pass the attendence book" trick, the one holding on to the attendence book will have to comment on the question. He's super pro, knows so much, although still have to draw so many many question marks all over his transparencies..
Wed
GP common test. Wrote an essay on nothing, absolutely no content, no language, nothing. Sure fail. Wonder why I did that.. shouldn't have chosen that question. maybe that's what I wanted, to try a philosophical question. *sigh* guess I'm going to get a single digit percentile again.
Settled Vox accounts finally, a month after the concert. Actually I really didn't do much, Ms Tan did everything, I just stand around and smile. Alfie was there when I went to settle everything, and we had a great laugh at him. "It's her right, she's from the band right? See, now you have a $3000 deficit. Never sell enough tickets lah." "You didn't go right? That's why made a loss." "Aiyah, you saying that I worth $3000 only?? How can?? Must give her demerit points." Haha.
Studied for QA after that and realised how easy it is to study Chem after trying to study for GP. Everything is just so clear and understandable. Add this to that and you get a ppt. Add more and it dissolves, why? Cos it forms a soluble complex. So logical.
Today
What a useless school day. Civics, CT wasn't here, Physics pract finished 1h early because we finished the tutorial so fast. Maths lect was wasting time going through lecture test, which I failed badly. Got slightly more than 1/4 of the marks. 1st failed Maths test in JC, haha, but not traumatising, guess I've expected it, and it's better than my relative velocity test in sec 4, where I only got 1/6 of the total marks. Then spent break trying to locate my physics TYS, and realised that some kind soul took it for me without knowing it. Maths tutorial, bleah, then QA test, probably the only useful thing I did in school.
Went to watch hockey match. Sorry that the girls lost to VJ, but I saw Mr Tang after that and said hi. He's really really thin, and balding. VJ life seems hard on him. Then it was the guys' match. It was so exciting. Their moves were so fluid, the stick is really like part of their body, they used it so well, a pleasure to watch them play. And of course they won AC. Yeah!!
Then, spontaneously or not, went to watch Shrek 2. Thought it would be a boring kiddo family movie, but turned out to be quite ok, very funny, but no touching ending. The ideas were good, the potions factory part especially and the Puss in Boots's look before kills and the donkey becoming a horse and having mutant donkey-dragons, but I really think that Fiona look so ugly, not because she's green or fat, but because of her features, I just dislike that button nose of hers. Found the movie very copy cat, got parts from all sorts of fairy tales and stories including LOTR, can't believe it. And the far far away place look like Main Street USA in Disneyland, with the shops and the brick street. And the castle looks like the hotel outside Disney. Dreamworks has been copying so much from Disney, they even had a little mermaid that had the exact same colour scheme as Ariel. And guess what, they're going to make a picture about some sharks in the sea, after Disney's Nemo. No wonder Disney's going out of business. Sorry, but I was pro-Disney.
An easy, relaxing day. Hope it'll be the same tomorrow.
Tue
In a study for GP mood, physics lect was cut short by half an hour, then PE cancelled, so all the time in the world to study GP. But then it's so difficult, gave up half way and went slacking and disturbing the Chem R people.
Chem S was an exciting session with Mr Yeo using that "pass the attendence book" trick, the one holding on to the attendence book will have to comment on the question. He's super pro, knows so much, although still have to draw so many many question marks all over his transparencies..
Wed
GP common test. Wrote an essay on nothing, absolutely no content, no language, nothing. Sure fail. Wonder why I did that.. shouldn't have chosen that question. maybe that's what I wanted, to try a philosophical question. *sigh* guess I'm going to get a single digit percentile again.
Settled Vox accounts finally, a month after the concert. Actually I really didn't do much, Ms Tan did everything, I just stand around and smile. Alfie was there when I went to settle everything, and we had a great laugh at him. "It's her right, she's from the band right? See, now you have a $3000 deficit. Never sell enough tickets lah." "You didn't go right? That's why made a loss." "Aiyah, you saying that I worth $3000 only?? How can?? Must give her demerit points." Haha.
Studied for QA after that and realised how easy it is to study Chem after trying to study for GP. Everything is just so clear and understandable. Add this to that and you get a ppt. Add more and it dissolves, why? Cos it forms a soluble complex. So logical.
Today
What a useless school day. Civics, CT wasn't here, Physics pract finished 1h early because we finished the tutorial so fast. Maths lect was wasting time going through lecture test, which I failed badly. Got slightly more than 1/4 of the marks. 1st failed Maths test in JC, haha, but not traumatising, guess I've expected it, and it's better than my relative velocity test in sec 4, where I only got 1/6 of the total marks. Then spent break trying to locate my physics TYS, and realised that some kind soul took it for me without knowing it. Maths tutorial, bleah, then QA test, probably the only useful thing I did in school.
Went to watch hockey match. Sorry that the girls lost to VJ, but I saw Mr Tang after that and said hi. He's really really thin, and balding. VJ life seems hard on him. Then it was the guys' match. It was so exciting. Their moves were so fluid, the stick is really like part of their body, they used it so well, a pleasure to watch them play. And of course they won AC. Yeah!!
Then, spontaneously or not, went to watch Shrek 2. Thought it would be a boring kiddo family movie, but turned out to be quite ok, very funny, but no touching ending. The ideas were good, the potions factory part especially and the Puss in Boots's look before kills and the donkey becoming a horse and having mutant donkey-dragons, but I really think that Fiona look so ugly, not because she's green or fat, but because of her features, I just dislike that button nose of hers. Found the movie very copy cat, got parts from all sorts of fairy tales and stories including LOTR, can't believe it. And the far far away place look like Main Street USA in Disneyland, with the shops and the brick street. And the castle looks like the hotel outside Disney. Dreamworks has been copying so much from Disney, they even had a little mermaid that had the exact same colour scheme as Ariel. And guess what, they're going to make a picture about some sharks in the sea, after Disney's Nemo. No wonder Disney's going out of business. Sorry, but I was pro-Disney.
An easy, relaxing day. Hope it'll be the same tomorrow.
Monday, 24 May 2004
realised that I really don't benefit much from individual lessons, more attention yes, but help me more, no. Had GP today with Christelle and Eric and it was so much more useful and productive than the last 2 sessions when i was alone and brain immobilised in alginate + calcium chloride. Actually this indiv thing has been a problem since long long time ago, spent quite some time in sec 3/4 thinking about it, thought it was solved, but no, I'm still real lousy at pushing myself, being involved in whatever we're doing. Anyway fun session today, trying to infer from him what questions are coming out for common test, don't think he knows actually, so all the hints that I got was that "Discuss the importance of books today." is going to come out. That helps a lot.. haha.
Called Siew Cheng, that girl from Yamaha exam dpt today, she's so cute. Still can't figure out how she can match every candidate's name to their face. Anyway, don't understand why they need us to bring in originals, they know that most people just borrow the books from teachers, so the Yamaha sales doesn't even go up. Just creating trouble for candidates. Even if I sincerely want to buy the book, there's no stock in Singapore. Order from Japan? That'll take 3 weeks or so to arrive. What copyright? Inconveniences everyone. Everybody knows that people photocopy scores, trade scores, pass them around. How to enforce copyright? OK, a bit off track here.
The impt point is, I found out that for June, only 2 people are taking Grade 4. Gosh, didn't know it's that rare. Wonder if they are going to dedicate a day just for the 2 of us, or they'll mix Grade 5s as well. If it's just 2 people, then good luck to me liao, cos the other person sure much much better than me..
Want holidays to come but don't want term to end. The kind of "why can't this lesson hurry up end", but then hating that time moves so fast, that there's no time to study in depth what I want to, that time just flashes by, that soon I'll be leaving this school system forever. In the end of term mood, everything not done properly, pushing everything to the hols. Going to be one busy mugging hols. Entertain me, people!
Called Siew Cheng, that girl from Yamaha exam dpt today, she's so cute. Still can't figure out how she can match every candidate's name to their face. Anyway, don't understand why they need us to bring in originals, they know that most people just borrow the books from teachers, so the Yamaha sales doesn't even go up. Just creating trouble for candidates. Even if I sincerely want to buy the book, there's no stock in Singapore. Order from Japan? That'll take 3 weeks or so to arrive. What copyright? Inconveniences everyone. Everybody knows that people photocopy scores, trade scores, pass them around. How to enforce copyright? OK, a bit off track here.
The impt point is, I found out that for June, only 2 people are taking Grade 4. Gosh, didn't know it's that rare. Wonder if they are going to dedicate a day just for the 2 of us, or they'll mix Grade 5s as well. If it's just 2 people, then good luck to me liao, cos the other person sure much much better than me..
Want holidays to come but don't want term to end. The kind of "why can't this lesson hurry up end", but then hating that time moves so fast, that there's no time to study in depth what I want to, that time just flashes by, that soon I'll be leaving this school system forever. In the end of term mood, everything not done properly, pushing everything to the hols. Going to be one busy mugging hols. Entertain me, people!
Thursday, 20 May 2004
making myself sad.. feeling sad that everything's coming to an end. Actually it's only one thing ending, but feeling really sad for that. Been playing pieces learnt in the past 2 years, memories dug out from the back of the brain back to the front. Music has a great way of storing memories, and I like storing in it. From the 1st piece A Whole New World, to the last, which I don't even dare to play cos it has some weird stuff stored in it. Sad, it's all coming to an end. Was thinking on the way back just now, after June life will be so sad, study, study and study. Might have a bit more free time, but most prob it'll be used for studying and working on essays and research on unis. Really considering signing up for something, make life a bit more interesting, have something to look forward to.
anyway, Maths test today, confirmed fail. Quite shocked by myself, couldn't do anything, skipped everything, careless everywhere. Won't be surprised if i get a single digit. sorry, will pull the class msg down quite a bit, i think. Guess it's my attitude towards school nowadays, not taking any test seriously, touching and doing first revision day before test.. haiz
quite a bad day compared to yesterday's slight euphoria.
It feels great to reminisce, to soak in yesterday's fond memories, at the same time it's great to dream about what'll happen tomorrow. The only bad time is the present. Guess I'll live in dreams.
"The future is an opaque mirror. Anyone who tries to look into it sees nothing but the dim outlines of an old and worried face."
~Jim Bishop, New York Journal-American, March 14, 1959
"Events in the past may be roughly divided into those which probably never happened and those which do not matter."
~William Ralph Inge (1860 - 1954)
"Live neither in the past nor in the future, but let each day's work absorb your entire energies, and satisfy your widest ambition."
~Sir William Osler (1849 - 1919), to his students
anyway, Maths test today, confirmed fail. Quite shocked by myself, couldn't do anything, skipped everything, careless everywhere. Won't be surprised if i get a single digit. sorry, will pull the class msg down quite a bit, i think. Guess it's my attitude towards school nowadays, not taking any test seriously, touching and doing first revision day before test.. haiz
quite a bad day compared to yesterday's slight euphoria.
It feels great to reminisce, to soak in yesterday's fond memories, at the same time it's great to dream about what'll happen tomorrow. The only bad time is the present. Guess I'll live in dreams.
"The future is an opaque mirror. Anyone who tries to look into it sees nothing but the dim outlines of an old and worried face."
~Jim Bishop, New York Journal-American, March 14, 1959
"Events in the past may be roughly divided into those which probably never happened and those which do not matter."
~William Ralph Inge (1860 - 1954)
"Live neither in the past nor in the future, but let each day's work absorb your entire energies, and satisfy your widest ambition."
~Sir William Osler (1849 - 1919), to his students
Wednesday, 19 May 2004
knew that I'll always meet a lot of people in Marine Parade.. last week I saw Kristin and Gerard, today I saw Clarence and Ji-en with Genevis and Ms Lee. Can't believe it, she actually remembered me. "you look familiar.. Shifeng." Wow, it's been around 6 yrs since she last called my name, she still remembered, and of course she remembered that Yvette was from RJ as well. Can't believe how thin she maintains herself while I'm a walking glob of fat. Gross. Anyway, went home in quite a good mood cos it was a great practice session, though i still can't get the piano to sound stylish, and feeling glad that she can still remember me.
Exam is in a 4 weeks time and I just found out today that I'm supposed to find one more repertoire, great, have to just grab something cheapo and play and hope they don't choose that piece. Still desperately searching for clues for chords.. 4 weeks enough? I don't know. GP, more urgent, 1 wk's time. Havn't even started doing anything yet. but seriously, I have no idea what I want to do. Well, will figure something out.
Read the class blog on the probability maths tutorial. Yeah, it was silent, but I think it's more because no one was paying attention to her, or rather bother responding to her. Really don't like the way she goes through every single question thoroughly and worry about the marks all the time. I don't think I'm there to learn how she wants to subtract all my marks away but rather how I can know my work better and apply them to different situations. Think she's wasting a lot of time. That's why half the time I don't listen to her but do my own stuff, but then she'll be staring at my stuff and asking me why I'm doing something else in her maths tutorial. That's my opinion of maths nowadays, others in the class might not agree..
Exam is in a 4 weeks time and I just found out today that I'm supposed to find one more repertoire, great, have to just grab something cheapo and play and hope they don't choose that piece. Still desperately searching for clues for chords.. 4 weeks enough? I don't know. GP, more urgent, 1 wk's time. Havn't even started doing anything yet. but seriously, I have no idea what I want to do. Well, will figure something out.
Read the class blog on the probability maths tutorial. Yeah, it was silent, but I think it's more because no one was paying attention to her, or rather bother responding to her. Really don't like the way she goes through every single question thoroughly and worry about the marks all the time. I don't think I'm there to learn how she wants to subtract all my marks away but rather how I can know my work better and apply them to different situations. Think she's wasting a lot of time. That's why half the time I don't listen to her but do my own stuff, but then she'll be staring at my stuff and asking me why I'm doing something else in her maths tutorial. That's my opinion of maths nowadays, others in the class might not agree..
Wednesday, 12 May 2004
blogger is getting cooler!
I've been feeling happy for no reason this few days. Yesterday went to school in a really bad mood, dreading school, dreading chem test, gp essay, double lect, bio make up, and no time to study for bio test.. but somehow went through the day feeling quite happy. Today, didn't do much brain work at all but felt really tired. Strange me.
I've been feeling happy for no reason this few days. Yesterday went to school in a really bad mood, dreading school, dreading chem test, gp essay, double lect, bio make up, and no time to study for bio test.. but somehow went through the day feeling quite happy. Today, didn't do much brain work at all but felt really tired. Strange me.
Monday, 10 May 2004
This is different.. anyway, having pathetically little time now, must study biotech..
Friday, went choir concert. Great concert, in my opinion, but I'm no expert. Was trying to get used to voices instead of winds and brasses coming from the stage throughout the first few songs.. Alumni sang some Carpenters medley, suddenly all the memories came flooding back, Rainy days and Mondays from last yr, and the rest from P5, P6, Sec 1 days, of course with that We've Only Just Began song which I accidentally entered as an exam song for Grade 6, I think, and then only passed by 2 points..
Saw that J3 girl (Kane's friend) whom I nv knew her name after the concert and we smiled at each other. Haha, so nice of her.
VCH, the last time I played for a concert there was 2 yrs ago, Rhythm XVI. Last time I stepped onstage was last April during SYF, last time I stepped backstage was last December, Rhythm XVII. Wish I was onstage instead of sitting in the audience..
Sat, MD elections, an amazing no. of "applicants", hard to choose, none of them as confident or have as much vision as Kah Chun, though some did have a lot of courage. Liked the van der roost piece, and the running notes in James Barnes piece sounded like Third Symphony.
Then went for lesson after a 3 wk break. Had a surprise mock exam which I failed. I'm actually quite surprised by the OK mark that he gave for impro, thought I screwed it quite badly when I couldn't even figure out the chords. Learnt quite a lot though.. but no mock exam for me at least in the next two weeks, too scary. Played Singin in the Rain well, for that P4 boy, haha, showing off to him, because it was after that mock thing and I was a lot more relaxed.
Sun, ORA day, went to open band rm in the morning, not bad, band room actually attracted a few people in. Sold food for class, then went YES to get new contacts. That woman was abusing my eyes, I was so scared that my eyeballs will fall off. Anyway she told me to stop wearing contacts for 2 wks, cos my eyes are discharging stuff and there are signs that my contacts don't fit me. Wow, discovered all these almost 2 yrs after I start wearing lenses? Think of the amount of damage done to my eyes! So, I'll be rather blind in the next few weeks with my specs, don't think I can see in Physics and Maths lects.
Friday, went choir concert. Great concert, in my opinion, but I'm no expert. Was trying to get used to voices instead of winds and brasses coming from the stage throughout the first few songs.. Alumni sang some Carpenters medley, suddenly all the memories came flooding back, Rainy days and Mondays from last yr, and the rest from P5, P6, Sec 1 days, of course with that We've Only Just Began song which I accidentally entered as an exam song for Grade 6, I think, and then only passed by 2 points..
Saw that J3 girl (Kane's friend) whom I nv knew her name after the concert and we smiled at each other. Haha, so nice of her.
VCH, the last time I played for a concert there was 2 yrs ago, Rhythm XVI. Last time I stepped onstage was last April during SYF, last time I stepped backstage was last December, Rhythm XVII. Wish I was onstage instead of sitting in the audience..
Sat, MD elections, an amazing no. of "applicants", hard to choose, none of them as confident or have as much vision as Kah Chun, though some did have a lot of courage. Liked the van der roost piece, and the running notes in James Barnes piece sounded like Third Symphony.
Then went for lesson after a 3 wk break. Had a surprise mock exam which I failed. I'm actually quite surprised by the OK mark that he gave for impro, thought I screwed it quite badly when I couldn't even figure out the chords. Learnt quite a lot though.. but no mock exam for me at least in the next two weeks, too scary. Played Singin in the Rain well, for that P4 boy, haha, showing off to him, because it was after that mock thing and I was a lot more relaxed.
Sun, ORA day, went to open band rm in the morning, not bad, band room actually attracted a few people in. Sold food for class, then went YES to get new contacts. That woman was abusing my eyes, I was so scared that my eyeballs will fall off. Anyway she told me to stop wearing contacts for 2 wks, cos my eyes are discharging stuff and there are signs that my contacts don't fit me. Wow, discovered all these almost 2 yrs after I start wearing lenses? Think of the amount of damage done to my eyes! So, I'll be rather blind in the next few weeks with my specs, don't think I can see in Physics and Maths lects.
Tuesday, 4 May 2004
had a most entertaining gp lesson with baolou's presentation.. None of his points sounded convincing enough, he was just trying to get away from all the "bullets", so he was saying" next point, next slide" all the time. Laughed non-stop at his strange-sounding theories (a hypothesis is not true unless it can be proven wrong?) and, how can we forget, his thunder examples..
my 2.4 run. Was the fastest run ever, thanks a lot to Sunny and Christelle for accompanying and pushing me the whole way through, at the risk of being caught by Ms Poon. Didn't even know I could run 2.4 in such a short time. haha, but sadly, didn't jump far enough for standing broad jump, so I bet must retake again.. nvm, I'm happy today.
Chem S presentation was good. The mike was so powerful, I fell in love with it. It's so extremely sensitive, so fun. haha. Anyway, our answer, or rather, Christelle's answers were very good, not much mistakes. The mistakes all came from my answers and suggestions. And the second question was, um, so cheater-bug, looked almost exactly the same as Alfie's ans.. Haha
Liked HK's presentation, short, concise, with no frills.. But that's the way to fail GP and probably bio as well, as I've learnt from Beef. Was just thinking about how I like Xu Xu's learning attitude, how she's so proactive, hardworking, esp with english, then she came and told me today that she like my attitude, not studying, but my contented? heck-care? attitude.
my 2.4 run. Was the fastest run ever, thanks a lot to Sunny and Christelle for accompanying and pushing me the whole way through, at the risk of being caught by Ms Poon. Didn't even know I could run 2.4 in such a short time. haha, but sadly, didn't jump far enough for standing broad jump, so I bet must retake again.. nvm, I'm happy today.
Chem S presentation was good. The mike was so powerful, I fell in love with it. It's so extremely sensitive, so fun. haha. Anyway, our answer, or rather, Christelle's answers were very good, not much mistakes. The mistakes all came from my answers and suggestions. And the second question was, um, so cheater-bug, looked almost exactly the same as Alfie's ans.. Haha
Liked HK's presentation, short, concise, with no frills.. But that's the way to fail GP and probably bio as well, as I've learnt from Beef. Was just thinking about how I like Xu Xu's learning attitude, how she's so proactive, hardworking, esp with english, then she came and told me today that she like my attitude, not studying, but my contented? heck-care? attitude.
Monday, 3 May 2004
displaced to the laptop..
amazing how teachers always know what's the problem with the student and how to tackle the problem, guess it's experience, but it just happened again.. the other time it was the "you can keep this set, we'll do a new set the next lesson", gave me the freedom to do whatever I wanted and needed to do at home without the fear that I've done too much and nothing to do during lessons.. today it was "there's nothing to be embarrassed about", hmm.. but I didn't really respond to that. My brain is just not developed in the english area, need tremendous effort to concentrate on what I'm doing, and the low reaction rate and low current in my nerves doesn't help either, was responding so slowly. Realised that I can't multi-task, when I write, I can't listen and so on.. very bad at taking notes
Does identifying weaknesses help? Supposedly after identifying, can find ways of overcoming them. Doesn't seem to work for me.. After identifying my weaknesses, I just accept them, accept and have that kind of "that's it, can't help it" attitude. Bad. Guess the only person who can help me now is myself, since I'm not even accepting other's help evidenced by that blank session today.. Sorry to those trying to help me. Don't give up though, I'll try to respond.
shocked and saddened by my 9th percentile..
amazing how teachers always know what's the problem with the student and how to tackle the problem, guess it's experience, but it just happened again.. the other time it was the "you can keep this set, we'll do a new set the next lesson", gave me the freedom to do whatever I wanted and needed to do at home without the fear that I've done too much and nothing to do during lessons.. today it was "there's nothing to be embarrassed about", hmm.. but I didn't really respond to that. My brain is just not developed in the english area, need tremendous effort to concentrate on what I'm doing, and the low reaction rate and low current in my nerves doesn't help either, was responding so slowly. Realised that I can't multi-task, when I write, I can't listen and so on.. very bad at taking notes
Does identifying weaknesses help? Supposedly after identifying, can find ways of overcoming them. Doesn't seem to work for me.. After identifying my weaknesses, I just accept them, accept and have that kind of "that's it, can't help it" attitude. Bad. Guess the only person who can help me now is myself, since I'm not even accepting other's help evidenced by that blank session today.. Sorry to those trying to help me. Don't give up though, I'll try to respond.
shocked and saddened by my 9th percentile..
Friday, 30 April 2004
as usual, running away from problems.. When there's something complex to think about, my mind just wanders off and escape somewhere simple..
in a dilemma, should i go for vj funfair? should go, cos meeting mr Tang is such a rare opportunity, and get to see the class.. but, there's so much to be done this weekend, everything has to be done by mon, and there's no one to go with me (ok, that's a really lousy excuse).. Should I? or not?
Think I've just met the most determined girl I've known. She's so disciplined, in all areas, mugging, jogging, keeping secrets.. wow, I'm so amazed by her discipline and concentration, must have her mom's genes.. And surprisingly, she thinks so much but is so blur. How many people can put the wooden blocks on the wrong line during shuttle run? Gosh, she's really living in her own world but at the same time, manages to manage all her thoughts so well. OK i'm not making sense. I think she'll be that kind of successful people, who'll forget about everything around them and enter that zen kind of state.
in a dilemma, should i go for vj funfair? should go, cos meeting mr Tang is such a rare opportunity, and get to see the class.. but, there's so much to be done this weekend, everything has to be done by mon, and there's no one to go with me (ok, that's a really lousy excuse).. Should I? or not?
Think I've just met the most determined girl I've known. She's so disciplined, in all areas, mugging, jogging, keeping secrets.. wow, I'm so amazed by her discipline and concentration, must have her mom's genes.. And surprisingly, she thinks so much but is so blur. How many people can put the wooden blocks on the wrong line during shuttle run? Gosh, she's really living in her own world but at the same time, manages to manage all her thoughts so well. OK i'm not making sense. I think she'll be that kind of successful people, who'll forget about everything around them and enter that zen kind of state.
Tuesday, 27 April 2004
concert yesterday, my last band concert, ever.. I believe.. but didn't feel sad or anything like Rhythm XVI, didn't feel that I've accomplished a lot even though I played all my important parts well (my Happy Ending was great! yeah, can actually hear me in the last part, the expressive melodious part)
Stage manager did a great job, there wasn't much confusion and most people were happy.. I love my room, I know that everyone was jealous of us. We got that conductor suite, which was a relatively big room with a toilet and a full length mirror and a comfortable couch and a bed looking like thing. All that for 4 people. Haha, compared to the 10+ strings stuck in some small dressing room with no room to move. And our room was connected to the next room, which was taken up by 2nd Violins, which had a great sounding piano. Entertainment for us.. Only bad thing about the room is that it's on a floor with only strings and teachers, the rest of the band are all on a different level, maybe that's why i didn't feel anything..
Esplanade is a wonderful place to play in. The hall just looks fantastic, this was my 4th time playing there and I'm still awed by the beauty of the hall, with the spiral thing on the roof, the theatre like seating, and of course, by my sound on the stage. Can hear myself so clearly, can hear every loose screw oscillating inside my instru.
Sometimes I really wish that I have wen-bin's confidence, don't scream people.. He's really confident.. Think professional, act professional, though maybe disgusting everyone in the meantime. Wish I can tell myself that I'm a professional, and believe in it. haiz, how to, when I screw up everything that comes into my hands..
sorry, i know my blog sounds sad and depressing again, but my blog is for me to complain, so if you are irritated by my complains, don't come here please
Stage manager did a great job, there wasn't much confusion and most people were happy.. I love my room, I know that everyone was jealous of us. We got that conductor suite, which was a relatively big room with a toilet and a full length mirror and a comfortable couch and a bed looking like thing. All that for 4 people. Haha, compared to the 10+ strings stuck in some small dressing room with no room to move. And our room was connected to the next room, which was taken up by 2nd Violins, which had a great sounding piano. Entertainment for us.. Only bad thing about the room is that it's on a floor with only strings and teachers, the rest of the band are all on a different level, maybe that's why i didn't feel anything..
Esplanade is a wonderful place to play in. The hall just looks fantastic, this was my 4th time playing there and I'm still awed by the beauty of the hall, with the spiral thing on the roof, the theatre like seating, and of course, by my sound on the stage. Can hear myself so clearly, can hear every loose screw oscillating inside my instru.
Sometimes I really wish that I have wen-bin's confidence, don't scream people.. He's really confident.. Think professional, act professional, though maybe disgusting everyone in the meantime. Wish I can tell myself that I'm a professional, and believe in it. haiz, how to, when I screw up everything that comes into my hands..
sorry, i know my blog sounds sad and depressing again, but my blog is for me to complain, so if you are irritated by my complains, don't come here please
Sunday, 25 April 2004
was just reading yesterday in Newsweek about Google and GMail and wondering why I've nv seen gmail before, haha, Blogger is asking me to try GMail.
Rather hot-tempered lately, no idea why. Been getting really irritated with people like Alex and, not surprisingly, my mum. sigh. she always kana my tantrums..
Been thinking quite a lot these few days, after the US uni talk and the AStar research talk. What do I want to do with the next few years of my life? Where do I want to be? Do I want to continue studying for the next 8 years? 8 yrs is a long time, that's from Pri 5 to now.. AStar scholarship is so attractive, but do I really want to study for the next 8 yrs continuously? I don't think the 6 yrs bond is that big a prob, cos AStar seems quite a nice place to work in.. And abt US unis, I need to do a lot more research before I can choose which ones to apply to.. and most prob, I won't have the time.
abt GP, didn't plan to write abt it but since HK mentioned it, yeah, it's the most frustrating subject around, cos I have absolutely no idea how to improve it and I don't know how my teacher can help me. And I know that he won't help me unless I ask him to, as in tell him what my problem is and ask for help. But the prob is, I have so many probs, don't even know which one to solve first.. help.
OK, dinner, no more blogging tonight.. Vox Stellarum tomorrow. Hope it's good.
Rather hot-tempered lately, no idea why. Been getting really irritated with people like Alex and, not surprisingly, my mum. sigh. she always kana my tantrums..
Been thinking quite a lot these few days, after the US uni talk and the AStar research talk. What do I want to do with the next few years of my life? Where do I want to be? Do I want to continue studying for the next 8 years? 8 yrs is a long time, that's from Pri 5 to now.. AStar scholarship is so attractive, but do I really want to study for the next 8 yrs continuously? I don't think the 6 yrs bond is that big a prob, cos AStar seems quite a nice place to work in.. And abt US unis, I need to do a lot more research before I can choose which ones to apply to.. and most prob, I won't have the time.
abt GP, didn't plan to write abt it but since HK mentioned it, yeah, it's the most frustrating subject around, cos I have absolutely no idea how to improve it and I don't know how my teacher can help me. And I know that he won't help me unless I ask him to, as in tell him what my problem is and ask for help. But the prob is, I have so many probs, don't even know which one to solve first.. help.
OK, dinner, no more blogging tonight.. Vox Stellarum tomorrow. Hope it's good.
Tuesday, 20 April 2004
Nicole Highway collapsed.. wow. Supposedly the road sank by 30m, that's higher than where I'm at right now. Heard that the road will be closed for the a month or so, guess there'll be no more suntec for me for a while.. such an important road down, and all the buses I used to take, 14, 196, 16, 608, all rerouted, wonder if they still go to the "12 bus stop" near DHS
Our class was sitting in this 道教 arrangement yesterday during tutorial. There was this curly distinction between the guys area and the girls area, and then in the guys area, there was 1 girl -- bao rong, and in the girls area, 1 guy -- eric.. haha, very interesting, 阳中带阴，阴中带阳。
Double lect today was boring but entertaining. As in the lecturers were not interesting, esp the physics one, trying to crack jokes and end up laughing at himself. But I was sitting beside HK and behind Alex, and they are rather entertaining people. Alex fell asleep halfway thru Maths and he hit his head on Hong King's table with this loud boom and our row was vibrating, HK and I started laughing non-stop. Somehow, the rest of the LT was also laughing at Mr Kan or something like that. And in that confusion of laughing, HK was rocking around and he banged his head on the table behind him. Apparently, you don't have to be asleep to knock into a table behind you. Anyway, that made us laugh even more, and HK was saying something like laughing is good for health.. hahaha.
My presentation skills are atrocious, let me list out all the mistakes I made during presentation: minimal eye contact, reading fr notes, weight in one leg, swaying around (that's my bad habit, I know that) and my handwriting on the board was illegible.. gosh, whatever happened to all my public speaking courses, and all the PW presentation training? Shall try to do better during Bio presentation. Really impressed with people like Tianjiao, everything is in the head, just stand there, take a pen, start scribbling on the board and talk to the audience. Impressive, they really know what they're talking about. Guess I'll nv be a teacher.. If I do teach, it'll be like Mr Wong's style, draw a diagram, then like that, like that, point here, arrow there, understand? Only I don't think I can be that pro.. Can see from my explanation questions in Chem, really just write down the key words. Wrong grammar, no sentence structure, just list the points separated by fullstops. Some call this pro, I call it a disability in expression.
Our class was sitting in this 道教 arrangement yesterday during tutorial. There was this curly distinction between the guys area and the girls area, and then in the guys area, there was 1 girl -- bao rong, and in the girls area, 1 guy -- eric.. haha, very interesting, 阳中带阴，阴中带阳。
Double lect today was boring but entertaining. As in the lecturers were not interesting, esp the physics one, trying to crack jokes and end up laughing at himself. But I was sitting beside HK and behind Alex, and they are rather entertaining people. Alex fell asleep halfway thru Maths and he hit his head on Hong King's table with this loud boom and our row was vibrating, HK and I started laughing non-stop. Somehow, the rest of the LT was also laughing at Mr Kan or something like that. And in that confusion of laughing, HK was rocking around and he banged his head on the table behind him. Apparently, you don't have to be asleep to knock into a table behind you. Anyway, that made us laugh even more, and HK was saying something like laughing is good for health.. hahaha.
My presentation skills are atrocious, let me list out all the mistakes I made during presentation: minimal eye contact, reading fr notes, weight in one leg, swaying around (that's my bad habit, I know that) and my handwriting on the board was illegible.. gosh, whatever happened to all my public speaking courses, and all the PW presentation training? Shall try to do better during Bio presentation. Really impressed with people like Tianjiao, everything is in the head, just stand there, take a pen, start scribbling on the board and talk to the audience. Impressive, they really know what they're talking about. Guess I'll nv be a teacher.. If I do teach, it'll be like Mr Wong's style, draw a diagram, then like that, like that, point here, arrow there, understand? Only I don't think I can be that pro.. Can see from my explanation questions in Chem, really just write down the key words. Wrong grammar, no sentence structure, just list the points separated by fullstops. Some call this pro, I call it a disability in expression.
Monday, 19 April 2004
read my post on PW, think it's really an ad for PW.. gosh, so brainwashed by MOE
feel rather useless, people ask me simple questions, half the time I won't know the answer. Like beef was asking some food biotech stuff that ms lee probably went through during the last lect, and I couldn't ans that, GP worse, don't know what to ans at all. For beef's question, at least I could invent an OKly reasonable answer, GP, my mind was blank. Happens all the time, in sch, outside sch, impro.. people ask for my opinion and I just go blank, one of the few serene and calm moments of my brain, where it suddenly hides everything and nothing's retrievable.. or rather whatever's supposed to be there wasn't there in the first place, so can't even try to dig for something. Amazed at those students who are interviewed by the news, can just stand there and talk.
Bio prac was um fun? poking holes into potatoes.. just too tedious, repeat the same thing for 12 times in 50 min? Boring.. and tedious, ended up faking results, and still not having enough time to answer the questions. At least I had a graph.. consolation? Don't know, what's wrong with our time management? Every prac so screwed, not just bio, physics, chem as well.
feel rather useless, people ask me simple questions, half the time I won't know the answer. Like beef was asking some food biotech stuff that ms lee probably went through during the last lect, and I couldn't ans that, GP worse, don't know what to ans at all. For beef's question, at least I could invent an OKly reasonable answer, GP, my mind was blank. Happens all the time, in sch, outside sch, impro.. people ask for my opinion and I just go blank, one of the few serene and calm moments of my brain, where it suddenly hides everything and nothing's retrievable.. or rather whatever's supposed to be there wasn't there in the first place, so can't even try to dig for something. Amazed at those students who are interviewed by the news, can just stand there and talk.
Bio prac was um fun? poking holes into potatoes.. just too tedious, repeat the same thing for 12 times in 50 min? Boring.. and tedious, ended up faking results, and still not having enough time to answer the questions. At least I had a graph.. consolation? Don't know, what's wrong with our time management? Every prac so screwed, not just bio, physics, chem as well.
Saturday, 17 April 2004
didn't realise how much courage moving house needs, the new environment, the entire new life that you get, the different hang outs, even the people you hang out with might change, plus the moving part, where everything must be sorted out, packed and unpacked, and big objects disassembled and assembled again..
tired of thinking...or worrying... 2 wks break fr lessons, good, shall conc on more relaxing stuff and enjoy life...
tired of thinking...or worrying... 2 wks break fr lessons, good, shall conc on more relaxing stuff and enjoy life...
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